I will say to the LORD, "My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust" -- Psalm 91:2
Tuesday, September 20, 2016
Things Going On
The past couple of weeks have been intense with lots of work. I am taking a few days off with my motorcycle starting tomorrow. It's time. I have no reserve left. But, as I often do, I have been praying and thinking about prayer, how we can make it too hard or too easy. In one sense, it is a matter of talking to God. That ought to be easy.
Here is the omniscient God, the Omnipresent. How does He not hear me? How do I not talk to Him? In John 14:20, Jesus says He is in the Father, and we are in Him, and He is in us. That's intimate. That is close. We are intertwined, interwoven into the Divine. Yet, I sometimes feel as though I am talking to myself, that the heavens are brass. As the old-timers used to say, my prayers don't get past the ceiling. A song says, "Prayer is the key to heaven, but faith unlocks the door."
To pray effectively, we must accept a major premise, an axiom that cannot be proven directly beforehand. It will also often be denied afterward. It is this: And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who seek Him (Hebrews 11:6).
That's the hard part of prayer, to maintain that attitude, to continue to trust, to live always in expectancy in the face of time and loss and trouble and heartache. The ape part of me wants to rise up, thrash and smash, rail and lament, beg and belittle.
I never want to admit that God knows and I don't. I can explain some things in retrospect, but even then I don't know. I have to trust. I always have to trust. That's hard for me. I hope it is easier for others. Really, the only person I trust is myself. When I think about it, though, that means I am trusting Adam, who is demonstrated to be Mr. Unreliable.
So, I have to give that up and be confident in the One who never fails. Once I get there, prayer is no longer burdensome. From that position, it is as natural as breathing, and it should be as frequent.